Friday, April 30, 2010

A little bit of Randomness!

Hello my lovely ladies (and gents of course)!

As part of the 'reformed (unfortunately with the help of a pill)' positive me, I have resolved to blog at least once a week. So here I am! And, oh God, have I had the mother of all weeks...up at 6:30am, straight to work, working straight through the day (no breaks), home at any time between 7:30 and 8:30pm, working out for an hour, then doing some more work for the next day, and finally bed! Totally exhausting, but great for the waistline of course! Woohoo! I'm finally able to see the positive in things again!!!

You can thank me least I spared you guys the from the horribly depressing crap that I had been spouting/internalising for the past couple of months. I know you all have your own issues to deal with so you seriously didn't need my self-pitying and deprecation added to that! That isn't to say that I don't completely understand how you feel though, I'm just my own worst critic so I don't really 'do' feeling sorry for myself.

I'm sorry I don't have any superficially interesting news to tell this week because, unfortunately, I haven't done anything other than work, work-out and sleep. I'm also completely brain-dead, after being forced to think for 12 hours straight today, so I'm not in a position to say anything deep and meaningful either. In time, I do want to reveal more about my situation and explain myself a little more but that's going to have to wait. I also have a number of hypotheses that I want to explore with you guys but I don't really have the capacity to string a logical argument together right now. Suffice to say, from my perspective, I'm doing well just to be writing something at the moment, it marks a significant improvement in my performance of late!

Before I go, however, I do want to extend my heart-felt gratitude to both What If Summer and K for your comments and support after my last blog.....admitting my weaknesses isn't something that comes easy to me, so you really have no idea just how much your understanding has meant. Anyway, I'm off to read your blogs now, but I really hope you guys are doing great -you deserve all the great things that the world has to offer....

Love C xxx.


  1. I'm glad you're feeling better!
    My first week or two on those little pills was kind of weird, but after that things were looking better than ever. I've kind of relapsed lately, and I must be getting used to the medication because the effects aren't nearly as noticeable as they once were. Kind of a bummer, but I doubt it's the pill's fault. Either way, relapses are no bueno.

    The blogging atmosphere is usually a pretty good place to find people who relate to you, so it helps you to a) feel less alone and b) say things that you would normally feel ashamed to admit. We understand, so don't feel bad about posting the occasional moody post. We've all been there and done that a few times :P

    Take care,

  2. Please keep coming back and writing as often as you can, and don't bad about letting off steam here, like 'summer said we're entitled to it, this is a place where you can say exactly what you like, and those who care for you will be here to offer support.

    Vi x